Tuesday, November 28, 2006

"Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose." - Janis Joplin


You know when you start fantasizing about running again that you are truly coming back. I realize that there are times recently -- say, when a certain "running song" comes on the radio -- that I will picture myself running in that blissful zone. I can picture the repetitive strides, just clipping the miles away. I can remember what it's like to zen, which was something I had come to know, depend on, and ultimately, take for granted. For so many months, nearly the entire year, I simply could not imagine what it felt like to really run. I just couldn't do it. Sure, I tried, but it made me feel sick, an unsettling visceral emptiness. Now, I once again find my mind drifting toward those pleasant thoughts and feelings of running. I can see my feet glide over the road, feel my emotions soar, experience what I know it is like to run and run and run, seemingly forever. I can even see in my mind my upcoming races despite my tentative entries.

It is sooo good to be back to running, physically, mentally and spiritually. It is my religion. I was lost and am now again found.

2 comments:

olga said...

Lisa!!! I found you! And I had exactly same post about 2 weeks ago:) What a wonderful feeling!

Lisa B said...

Hi Olga! I just read your November 9th "I am back" post to your blog: http://runmoretalkless.blogspot.com/2006/11/i-am-back.html

Wow! Are you sure I didn't write that?? We runners sure understand each other! Glad you are back too.

Hugs,
Lisa